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Luvmunkey Yesterday, a "thought" came to me ... a thought that just won't "GO AWAY" ... in a moment of "sadness", this thought popped into my mind ..... the thought of all the times I felt my Heart "break" .... I don't EVER watse time thinking of whose "fault" it was or focus on "blame" ..... what "difference" would it make ? but, I did feel "sad", and that emotion is clinging to this thought ... this thought that just won't GO AWAY ..... I really do NOT "like" the rare times I allow myself to think and feel this way .... it's "pointless" I guess the "reason" I'm having trouble "shaking" this thought/feeling is because at the "moment", I'm missing the feeling of "closeness" with a woman ..... the "connection" ...... who am I kidding ? ..... I miss being In-LOVE with a woman ....... FUCK !!! I hate when I acknowledge this .... usually, I'm so "care-free" ... so "easy-going" .... usually, Im "happy" with accepting the FACT that I'll probably NEVER find "THE ONE" .... it's never been much of a "challenge" for me to find a gal to LUV for a "moment" .... and usually, I can "ignore" the "emptiness" I feel in "relationships" like that ..... I get "laid", which feels GOOD, I get a gal who "pretends" to "care" about me for a moment .... and everything is FINE .... I enjoy NOT being "stuck" in a "Settled-for" Relationship .... been there, Done that, BURNED the t-shirt ...... NEVER AGAIN I'm "fine" with "waiting" for that very Special ONE ..... even if that means I may NEVER find her ... I still prefer THAT to making a LOVE-committment to a woman I'm NOT HONESTLY, ABSOLUTELY, COMPLETELY "IN-LOVE" with... there have been lovers that I "wanted" to be THE ONE ..... non-lovers too ... but, I'll never ask a woman to "change" to be what I want them to be .... and NO FUKIN' WAY will "I" be "trained" or "tamed" by ANYONE ... "if you don't LOVE and ADORE me for the man I "am", then "we" are NOT "right" for each other I'll NEVER change my mind on THAT ... or the feelings in my heart I don't feel that I need to "apologize" to ANYONE for wanting a woman that can keep her body somewhat "in-shape" ...... I'm not "criticizing" any woman who does NOT, but I sure as HELL don't understand why I'm supposed to "ignore" something like THAT .... this is something beyond a "physical attraction" ....... how you treat Yourself and your body defines YOU ... your character .... your beliefs .... it exposes your EMOTIONS and how you handle your emotions .... duh despite popular "opinion" .... I'm not looking for a fukin' "Barbie Doll" ..... Barbies are PLASTIC .... who the fuck wants THAT ? i almost "married" a gal (would have been #3) who had an "inch to pinch" here and there .... and I thought she was the SEXIEST woman I've ever known ..... it has nothing to do with physical "perfection" .... hell, sometimes, even "I" have a 1/2" to pinch (sometimes) .... I'm not "perfect" either ...... so what I'm not a "slut" or a "" .... I'm an Incredible Lover who makes temporary-connections with women (not "lately" though) .... I satisfy "urges and desires" for the moment ... I do what I can to make my Lover feel "special" ... but I do NOT see anything WRONG with that and it says NOTHING about ability and DESIRE to committ myself to only ONE ....... I've done it .... I CAN do it ..... and for THE ONE ....... I "WILL" do it it's not the BODY .... it's NOT the MIND ...it's NOT any ONE THING I want the PACKAGE ... the WHOLE THING .... ultimately though, it's the connection between the HEARTS ..... there it IS ....... shit, "REALITY" is coming back to me now .... yep, I KNOW I'll probably never find her .... she'll mistake me for a "player" ...... because my "guard" is up too high to clearly SEE the man I really am ...... and I won't SEE her either for the same stupid reason ..... this is my world ...... what can I do ? maybe ....... one day Luvmunkey Swingin' In the Trees |
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sweet exposed luvmunkey!!! all good comes to those who wait!!!and wait,and wait!!!! i love your honesty....you are a sweet man and i think you will know "the one"...you will know it instantly!!!! warm hugs and always good to see you post!!! kissess and hugs and a wish for the best weekend ever     []   Seduce my mind and my body
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sweet exposed luvmunkey!!! all good comes to those who wait!!!and wait,and wait!!!! i love your honesty....you are a sweet man and i think you will know "the one"...you will know it instantly!!!! warm hugs and always good to see you post!!! kissess and hugs and a wish for the best weekend ever You are ONE woman I've NEVER had to "wonder" why I feel the way I feel for you ..... you are, without a doubt, one of the very BEST I have ever encountered you've "earned" the "O" ...... i do LOVE you .... you are a Beautiful Person in EVERY WAY Thank you ....... you are PERFECT Luvmunkey Swingin' In the Trees
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omg..my dear friend such a lovely comment...but i am so far from perfect...i hurt myself and in doing so i affect others.... i can be a twisted and tormented soul....just lately i have bloged around it...makes me uncomfortable to talk about it as it is really only my take...how my mind works...others grow tired of the pain i carry!!! i am so far from perfect my love.... []Seduce my mind and my body
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My Darling ... My Dear .... when I describe a HUMAN as "Perfect" .... obviously, the word PERFECT means something VERY DIFFERENT to "me" than defined by "Webster" Humans are FULL of FLAWS ..... and I LUV THAT the most attractive quality of a Human to "me", is the ability to recognize and admit your flaws ... then DO something about it you can choose to feel "complimented" by my personal VIEW of you, or you can choose to simply ignore it .... your choice I'm neither Judge nor Jury ..... just a "Fan" be happy  Luvmunkey Swingin' In the Trees
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 good comment back.....i will choose to like it...i like it hun!!!![]Seduce my mind and my body
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