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if i'm not good enough for Mr Great Britain ~ all I know is ~ I had no idea I was going to be the woman I am today ~ its not about letting go ~ its about sacred silence & peace my firdst comic set I bought was in 1994 ~ called witch craft ~ the sory of faith & her will was tested until her last Breath ~ she held on until she couldnt ~ Her Faith lead to the creations of Witches ~ not Bitches but Witches Ladies of the Order of Faith catholics call them Nuns ~ in England we are the Church of Englad as King Henry Tudor has it ~ and so it shall Stand ~ as a lady of worldly blood ~ I have Faith & I too do not wish to let go ~ in fact ~ I may have to live in sacred silence & peace I do not wish to cry I do not wish to lie & I know at some point im going to di* part of me ~ I dont know what goes on ~ but I have faith I trust ~ mny times the trust has smelt like urine on my head instead of rain ~ wash it off with spring water ~ attention is better than no attention ~ I have the faith to wait ~ fair enough no woman in Britian wishes to know me ~ im black pretty beautiful my name is Cher ~ hey ~ god loves me ~ the sad thing is I have sat alone for over 9 years ~ the day I changed my baggy trousers & skateboard for a car & Grand skirts the ladies friends dissapeared men reappeared ~ & the swan inside Grew into a beautiful woman i was never prepared to be the doctors the nurse ~ trained to talk to me ~ but if i was alone in a bar ~ yo ~ not good enough alone in a festival feild ~ still not good enough & if i look nice what do people say ~ she is a migrant or she is a never the nice lady alone with no friends ~ {every fucking woman i once knew is drained out with more then they can physically mange aka they look buss up} not my fate ~ hey ~ festival may I dance under the moonlight & just pretend im ok ~ just pretend im fine ~ if i hold my head up & that actually stops silent tears flowing from my face {literally} the good thing about festivals is you can walk from under one venue & walk through a feild cry ~ run back to your tent apply more sparkle shine under the moonlight & hide your feelings ~ than you god for the DJ'S they havve saved my life many times & the beats have sheilded me many times from the gangs of jealous woman who { well} im dancing feel free to Watch ~ gotta love good DJ's ~ xx if i didnt do nice things when I was nieve like the Fool in a Tarot card deck ~ hey i would not have the memories to reflect on now ~ as I try & keep the faith hold on the truth does hurt ~ im quite happy to di* like faith just as much as there are Warriors in Britain who are willing to Di* for us everyday sometimes I wish to keep the faith but at times I dont know whether I have my head up the intestines of {not gonna happen} have faith ~ honesty hurts ~ I can live with it ~ at night im the dying lady in her bed in the day time people say nice things to me about my dress I look lovely ~ xxx sometimes I have to be 10000% there for people which I love being there for them as at that point they may need me ~ & When you wear the<b> dresses </font></b>I do ~ it does carry some responsibility ~ & I live up to it ~ but when the sun goes down ~ its like a Judy Garland interview ~ you hear things which resonate ~ you dont have to be white to feel unwell & not right ~ syndromes happen to all ladies ~ xxx I dont wish to loose faith it just makes me cry deep down ~ im not good enough ~ its just if I had fought back ~ maybe I wouldnt be the lady I am now ~ thoughts of potentially being unRuined is like gazing at the ruins of a castle & imagining how pretty my<b> dresses </font></b>still looks against those fallen Bricks ~ just wish to build them back up again restore the & let her be pure once more  |
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its sad the fate of it ~ I try & keep myself safe sheilded ~ I wish to be like faith ~ in some ways ~ if im going to drown make it be in my own tears please
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my face is an embarrassment ~ I have to watch others enjoy all as my face is not suited for my hearts desired ~ its the reality of my fantasy ~
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4/1/2019 4:06 pm |
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pills for roses ~ roses & pills satin petals cotton pillows sucking not fucking medical breath
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my friend once had this look in her eyes ~ she looked saddenly accepting of her fate & in someways I learned from her ~she looked pretty she also looked fated out of fate ~ like as if she said "Chell" you have fun on my behalf & I really loved her ~ xxx out of all my friends ~ her path was not the same as mine & that look she had once it was deep ~ I felt it & people dont understand some of the things I do is because she cant do them & it doesnt take away the fact that
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4/1/2019 4:55 pm |
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