A little over a week ago I did my first meetup on here. The guy was nice, and I just gave him a blowjob. Unfortunately, I started to feel really sick afterwards (more emotionally/psychological) and spent some time throwing up in my workplace parking lot.
I still have some issues to work through. There is a part of me with a very specific sex drive that I want to take part in, but there is a part of me that is disgusted with myself and hates who I am.
Regardless, sorry I vanished and left some people hanging.
Recently I had some surgery to remove a mass from my right breast. I get these fairly often and this is the fourth time I have had to have this procedure. Usually I am good to go within a day or two, but this time the surgery took longer than expected and I woke up with drainage tubes attached to me. I finally had the tubes removed yesterday, but I am still swollen and gross. The bruises have moved onto that yellowy phase. This is probably a good thing as it gives me time to pick an appropriate uh.. suitor on here. Though I am sure some people on here are frustrated at the delay of me fucking any of them. Remember that only time heals wounds... but if you bought me like... a kick ass watch or sunglasses or something I would be ready to go just saying. Amen.