maturity is hard at times
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Posted:Mar 30, 2019 5:33 pm
Last Updated:May 24, 2024 4:7 pm
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the sweat dripped off my brow, i watched as it slowly the floor my feet. my stomach was aching, sore and twisting. this fight has been happening for so long and here it comes. the battle is followed by the war now. as my hands shake and i clench my last bit of strength . i am more focused now then i have ever been. there has been a switch set off in my mind. the receptors came together to make a circuit. now the flow of energy is circling in a constant pattern. the whole picture starts coming together. the engine is now in tune and ready for the test run. i watch the next bead of sweat fall, and then another. it has been so long since i fought. i have tried for years to avoid this. it wasn't long ago fighting is all i cared about. next town next man, tomorrow brings another fight, go put the gloves on and knock him the fuck out. i am not the same as i was then. i am not as good as i once was you could say. now this though has my full attention. i get into the defensive stance as the enemy comes. hands up and ready. as he got closer i saw the change in his demeanor. this man did not want to fight anymore, fear was in his eyes.. i am so ready though, i need to get this out. somewhere in this moment i saw it all. i saw the outcome, same outcome as before. i see the the devastation that follows. i can beat the shit out of this guy. then all the people here now belittle him. his ignorance should be punished, but not this way. his fear isnt of losing, it is of the people around. confidence is one of the greatest powers a man can have. as i into his eyes, my fist lowers. people are telling us to do it. just cause they want a fucking video on worldstar. i take a deep breath i stare him straight into his eyes as he looks down. "we don't have to do it like this, but you need to learn how to fucking treat people."i sternly uttered . "you wont learn though by the ass whopping i am ready to give, instead your gonna go with to the bar" that day marked a chapter for that i am so happy for. one problem i have noticed lately is belittling. intelligence and knowledge shouldn't be used to belittle. instead we need to teach, mentor and show people the right way. i could of beat that 21 year old punks ass, but instead i talked with him. told him where he was wrong, told him what he should be doing and gave him an ear to let his confusions to. maybe if this happened for others it wouldn't take them so long to figure it .
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how it all started
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Posted:Mar 30, 2019 5:25 pm
Last Updated:May 24, 2024 4:7 pm
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this 18 year old punk walks into a bar. thinks he knows everything and is above everybody. that same 18 year old gets a drink at the bar. bartender knows his whole family. he will let him have a night here and there on busier nights. this 18 year old was me, and half way through my third beer i was feeling a buzz(i miss those days, drink for cheap). as i took a large gulp of the beer, and i am returning the glass to the table. i happen to up the door. she stood there, every bit of my fantasy. she was my boss, and a gorgeous hispanic lady with a solid frame. bearing hips and the ass of a runner. she had a flat nice stomach with these fake single d sized breasts. she was 42 and i dont know why i was so attracted. i couldn't away as her eyes caught mine.
i figured she was gonna be upset and get in trouble. i quickly chugged the last half of the beer as i watched her approach. "Cody, what in the hell are you doing?" she spoke like a to , she had since i started the job. half stunned and stumbling on words i replied"i just wanted to feel like a big tonight" she laughed this nurturing style laugh and put her hand on my shoulder. "well let take you home hun, you shouldn't drive" she sternly said as she put a 20 on the bar. "are we good" she questioned the bartender. " yeah, sorry i know his family just giving the a break" she looked him with a smile"no it is fine i am just breaking his leg." she grabbed by the hand and walked the bar. i was in a state of shock, panic and disbelief. i had no idea what was going on. i remember my dick was thinking it would be nice to fuck this woman. my stomach was slightly turning like this may not be good. my mind was just trying to comprehend it. we walked to the car, she had this beautiful brand new charger. it was this burnt orange base color with black parallel stripes running from hood to trunk. i opened the passenger seat and stepped in. "i live off of mathison and junction" i stammer . " okay, but were not going there. i am taking you home." she spoke like it was planned from the start. i was in complete disbelief, all i could was small talk. so i just stammered the usual questions avoiding the biggest question in my mind.
we drove to this town not to far from there called harper. she turned off on a backroad with an old tire shop on the corner. i can not recall the name of the road i used landmarks usually. she drove about a quarter mile and she pulled over. "your from center point so you know how to drive these roads." she rhetorically asked me. then she stepped out. pretty self explanatory so i stepped out held the door for her, then proceeded to the drivers seat. i dont know what to say. i over her and there is a i have never seen before. she is staring from head to toe. she runs her hand across my chest and stomach. "take your pants off, i bet none of them ever did this for you" she seductively whispered while kissing my earlobe. now, i am an 18 year old punk , been kinky already and done some stuff. never had i gotten road head, and never have i had a woman come on to me so strong. i never once stop to think and realize. she was basically hypnotizing me. i ripped my pants off and before i can react. she puts the car in drive and starts to lick my balls. "wait i dont know where to go" i ask nervously. she smiled and said something that to this day. i hear it when i am impaired in the slightest way and driving. "i will be done with this before we make it to the drive, don't close your eyes, stay between the yellow and white line." that is exactly what i did. she licked my shaft balls, rubbed my balls as she swallowed every inch of my cock. i was experienced enough and focusing on the road enough i lasted a while. then came the release and i pulled over quick. my leg shaking uncontrollably on the brake pedal. like it was nothing she pulls all the and swallows it. "you are bigger than i expected, and better stamina. were about to have a lot more fun my " she utters in the sexiest voice i have ever heard. her Spanish tongue reflecting on the words with elegance.
we are in her driveway now this gorgeous house. it is not a mansion, but a big and beautiful ranch house. as we walk inside she leads by the hand. walks up stairs and pulls a key of her purse. she then unlocks this door and it is a play room. not dungeon more like a livable room to play in. restraints hooked to the bed, a sex swing, multiple benches of varrying size and more things along those nature. "take off your clothes and lay on the bed on your back." she whispers in my ear. i do as she says and as i lay down she jumps on top of . straddling my waist. she grabs my wrist and puts both in restraints the head of the bed. followed by my ankles to the foot of the bed. i am spread eagle naked in a room, with a clothed lady old enough to be my mom. i am the most scared, the most excited and the horniest i have ever been in my life that time..........this is where it all began. that day in that room, a became a man.
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nerve
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Posted:Mar 30, 2019 4:50 pm
Last Updated:May 24, 2024 4:7 pm
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i had read this , a couple years ago. after i read it the stuck something in my head. the is about fear, anxiety, stress and reaction. it was an absolutely amazing and helped deal with a lot. off the bat, the curves a misconception about fear. what is the main thought of fear? fight or flight, we all say it right. well the brings up another response. freeze, this is something that i have always done. just saying freeze is very broad though. so what it is referring too is the ability to freeze then react. so yes fight or flight is still the to choices to fear. someone like me though when the instance happens, i freeze and take quick second to weigh option before i choose between fight or flight. like in the hero movie, the lady is falling from the building as the bad guy runs and destroys the city killing 0 people in that destruction. the hero always freeze and figures how to save both. it is suspense in the movie, but think about the reaction in real life.
so if it was and i will be hated for this. if the bad guy shot a helicopter, and threw someone off a building. we are in a city with many lives moving around. i would freeze and would rather let that one die then 0 other people in the result of the helicopter. so that is the basis of freeze. make your own scenario and think about it. like for instance, you driving down the freeway at 70, the car you have a decent distance on about two car lengths. locks there brakes, going from 70 to zero quick. so you swerve or brake as well in a natural reaction. now what if you got of the and weighed options fast. is the shoulder clear, the lanes next to clear. can i brake down real hard and then get a chance to switch lanes. either one of the choices give you an extra second.
i am not saying i am perfect and never react unaccordingly. i just needed to let this and hope it helps someone else in a cruch situation. fear is something that can be paralyzing, but doing nothing is usually never the right answer. unless a bear is coming after you, then you fucking freeze and pray to every god you know for your dear life. hahahaha
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